- Wounded Masculinity
Parsifal and The Fisher King Wound
- by Richard Sanderson, M.Ed., B.A.
There is a particular soul need in western minds for good to
triumph
over evil in our external world. Seldom do we internalize this
soul need
in terms of our own daily actions, thoughts and feelings. The
mythic
underpinnings of todays western world can be found in legends
and
myths of the 12th century. The medieval knights, their chivalry
and
heroic duty was to find out evil doers and run them through with
their
sword of righteousness. Good versus "Evil",
no less! Dragons and
particularly the "infidel" (unbaptized men) were specifically
targeted as
the foe, as they were usually holding a land or castle under
tyranny. This
sounds so familiar in light of the "Manhattan terrorist
attack,
September 11, 2001.
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- The task of this work is to take the current
suffering of man as an interior event
- (as something all men have incommon) and
not to blame someone outside for this or that. Without looking
first at ourselves as men, there is little chance of enhancing
mans consciousness and ability to relate wholly to one
another.
A retelling of the most famous and effective myth of "Parsifal
and the
Fisher King" is the backdrop for this intended healing work.
Original
medieval versions of "Parsifal" by Chretien de Troyes
and Wolfram
von Eschenbach have echoed down through time and many versions
have been written such is its attraction. The myth perennially
enlivens
mans consciousness, fuels his desire to be whole and is called
a "living
myth". In the retelling I have not found it necessary to
look at each
incident and adventure of Parsifal, but to choose those aspects
pertaining to healing mans masculinity. I undertook this
work as part
of my ongoing healing journey and out of disappointment that
there are
so few healthy models for boys and men to emulate!
A contemporary mans whole sense of self-worth and potency
in this
world is often based on his own and others perception of his
masculinity-sexuality. James Wyly (1987) discusses that the central
core to most men is "his phallus, his libido, his sense
of potency and
ability to potentiate his own destiny, to create himself in accord
with his
inner image". The Parsifal myth is a medieval "mans
story" of
restoring unity to misaligned masculinity and for men to start
filling the
emptiness that results from adherence to collective sexual values.
The
myth is a tale so worth retelling and reading for todays
modern man.
Women will say ah ha!
The quest, or striving to merge with the fountain of one's life,
is our
innate desire to be wholesome and happy. In this sense we are
all on the
same quest as our hero Parsifal. Men are indeed modern heroes
as each
day we set off on this quest to be happy.
The main players in the myth:
The main players are Parsifal, a young man from Wales. The Fisher
King the king of the Grail Castle. Kundry, the queenly, mysterious,
mystic woman (a female counterpart of Merlin). Parsifals
mother
Herzeleide, who carries the sorrow of Parsifals fathers
actions.
Parsifal's father, Gamuret, a man equally wounded and absent
in
Parsifal's life. The Holy Grail (a unity with God), that bestows
life and
love upon the kingdom. The Grail Castle, a castle and kingdom
"hidden" amidst the mists from all whom cannot see.
Lastly, the forces
of destruction "the dark side", that strives to pervert
the flowing of The
Holy Grail.
The myth:
At the heart of the Grail Castle a Holy Spear and a Holy Chalice
lay.
The two divine implements are needed daily for The Holy Grail
enactment, the eternal task of bringing light into the kingdom;
for that
light is the source of the cycle of life and death. The two divine
implements represent the masculine and feminine principles which
when combined in perfect wholeness produce light into the kingdom
of
the Fisher King. The Holy Chalice represents the feminine aspect
of
feeling and beauty that both contains and transforms. The chalice
in
christianized versions is that which Jesus used at the Last Supper,
containing the wine and later his blood. The Holy Spear represents
the
masculine strength required to stand erect and guard
the precious
Grail. The Holy Spear in Christianized versions, is the same
spear that
pierced the side of Christ on the cross (perhaps it pierced Christs
testicles?). Each day every knight of the inner order (of the
Arthurian
tradition) would renew his oath to defend the Grail with his
very life
and affirm his service to the Holy Grail.
The Grail Castle has fallen upon hard times; the spear has been
stolen.
The Fisher King was wounded in his testicles by the Holy Spear
as it
was being stolen. The King was described as being henceforth
too ill to
live but not ill enough to die (the modern malaise). In
some versions of
the Parsifal myth it speaks of Grail Castle disunity, as specific
knights
use all manner of trickery, temptations and illusions to corrupt
specifically The Fisher King and ultimately The Holy Grail (the
unity
with God). Kundry, the mysterious sorceress within the Grail
Castle
was also corrupted and trapped as a result of the demise of the
Grail
Castle. Kundry was then used to help overcome good knights, using
such weapons as temptation and other alluring appeals. As myth
had it,
many knights had tried to win back the spear but were all corrupted
by
the forces of the "dark side".
The wound to The Fisher King, via a spear through his testicles
(to the
tenderest part of the male anatomy), signifies a wounding to
man's
sense of potency and his self-esteem. The wounding in this "private
part" of himself will not heal and equates to The Fisher
Kings "Fall
from Grace" (the noble part of the king has fallen from
grace). He is
metaphorically expelled from the Garden of Eden (The Holy Grail).
Interestingly, The Fisher King only gets relief from his pain
when he is
fishing, meaning, doing reflective work on himself. The Fisher
Kings
kingdom has been laid to waste, the meadows and flowers are dried
up
and the waters shrunken. The suggestion is that any malaise to
the king
is mirrored in his kingdom. This implies that if there is a wound
to the
"kingly-inner man", then the whole personality (his
whole world) will
be troubled! As if by magic, whenever the Fisher King is healed
the
lands surrounding the king will be healed instantly.
The healing of the king and kingdom will only take place with
the
coming of the good grail knight an "innocent
fool" (Parsifal) who will
restore health to the Fisher King, his land, its people by asking
a
specific question. Merlin is thought to have prophesied that
a pure
knight who will do mighty deeds of arms, of bounty and of nobility
will
ask the perplexing question "whom does the grail serve"?
I wish to
emphasize that Parsifal was attitudinally innocent and pure and
not
physically pure in a celibate sense. He was brought up in the
instinctual
realm of the forest and would not have acquired puritanical injunctions
against the beauty and naturalness of sexual activity. Should
the "pure
knight" fail to ask the question, then everything will remain
wasted and
the knight in question will have to leave the Grail Castle to
search and
learn. Should he finally learn, then again he may return to The
Grail
Castle and ask the question. The king and kingdom will then be
restored
to health, as the waters of life will run.
Comment: The spear that caused the wounding is so integral
to this
myth and the healing process for men. The spear represents the
masculine integrity and feeling aspect which has been stolen
and
without it there is no protection, no "holding" for
the Holy Grail to
re-emerge. In psychology, author Robert Johnson has observed
that "the
Fisher King's wound [to his testicles] is symbolic of mens
difficulties
in directly intimate and sexual matters."
Whats in a name?
Why the Fisher King name? The fish is such an ancient symbol
of the
spiritual mysteries of life, the sign of Christ, Christians and
"disciples"
being "fishers of men". In Celtic myth, a strong link
occurs between the
salmon and knowledge. At breeding time, the salmon returns to
the
place of its origin, fighting against the flow of the river,
in order to
breed (to create). The crude expression that man is born
out of the
vagina and spends the rest of his life trying to get back in
there (return
to wholeness) takes on a new significance in this light. This
is
understood as a troubled human soul (in man), perpetually struggling
to
reconcile itself to itself. Astrologically the myth is also set
in the
dualistic Piscean Age (symbolized as two fishes) of mans
current stage
of evolution on this earth.
Parsifals mother:
Parsifal's mother, Herzeleide was a "queen of two kingdoms,"
supposedly North and South Wales, which may have meant of spiritual
and material realms. Wales had retained integrity and honor long
before
the English Knights emerged with their codes of chivalry. Herzeleide
was just widowed when she gave birth to her son Parsifal. Herzeleide,
meaning "heart's sorrow" left her noble home to live
in a forester's
cottage far away. She feared that a fate, which killed her husband,
would overtake her son, so she raised him to know nothing of
knighthood and to be ignorant of his name and heritage. How many
mothers try to instil in their sons integrity, to guard
them from the
foolhardiness of their fathers? She specifically instructed him
to be
courteous to all women and not to ask too many questions!
Parsifals father:
There is mystery surrounding the identity and heritage of Parsifals
father and Parsifal grew up without a father (an absent father),
which is
often the case for todays youth. However, Parsifals
father was
allegedly Gamuret and some versions say he was the Fisher Kings
brother. The young knight Gamuret decided to journey to the Middle
East to seek his glory and fortune, as was the want of many a
true
knight. After winning a great victory in a tournament he attracted
Belakane, the dusky Queen of Zazamanc; they fell in love and
were
married. He shared the throne of Zazamanc for a time, but peaceful
court life in a foreign land was not suited to the young warrior
and he
stole away (ran away). Following this, Belakane gave birth to
Gamuret's first son, Feirefiz, the "piebald" (half-cast),
Parsifals half
brother. Mythically the relationship between Feirefiz and Parsifal
implies the great brotherhood of man between all races and cultures.
Gamuret arrived back in Europe and while jousting, his gallantry
won
him the heart of Herzeleide, Queen of Wales. How many women fall
for the exterior gallantry to this day? Herzeleide eventually
convinced
Gamuret that he should give up the love of the unbaptized/infidel
Queen Belakane and they were married. Word then reached
Gamuret
that his old lord, in the Middle East, was facing an invasion
by the
Babylonians. He returned with glee to assist his old friend and
while
fighting in the intense heat, Gamuret paused to rest, briefly
removing
his "charmed" head shield to drink. A lance blow pierced
his head.
When Queen Herzeleide heard of this, she went to live alone in
the
forest and gave birth to Parsifal while still mourning for her
husband.
Herzeleides, mourning was in knowing that her
husband loved
another and was married "albeit illegally to Queen Belakane.
His
gallantry had amounted to nothing and resulted in grief to all
and
ultimately death to himself. His "gallantry and charm"
was bravado and
empty, as there was no relatedness to either, Herzeleide in Europe,
Belakane in the Middle East, or to his young sons!
Parsifal comes of age:
During Parsifal's upbringing, his youthful years were spent in
the forest.
"He grew up handsome, strong, athletic, but with his rational
thinking
largely undeveloped". "He was later called "simple"
or "innocent fool",
not because he was indeed unintelligent, but for his guileless
innocence,
his simple perceptions and faith" (Oderberg, I.M., 1978).
It is also
speculated that being brought up in the forest with such a queenly
mother, that he was able to see into the mysteries of the "inner"
world.
Ultimately he would bring his instinctual knowing into the every
day
realities of the outer world.
No sooner had Parsifal "come of age" when he encountered
knights
riding through the forest. He was so taken by their godlike appearance,
that he immediately wished to become one of them. He told this
to his
mother and she wept as she had tried to protect him from the
wiles and
ways of knights. She begged him to stay with her; but his heart
was set,
and at last she gave him her blessing to go. Sadly, some versions
have it
that Herzeleide, Parsifals mother died shortly after he
left.
So off went Parsifal into the world where his naiveté
and sincere
enthusiasm atoned for his social blunders. He rescued a fair
maiden,
Blanchfleur, fell in love and "stole her ring". Deflowering
of a lovely
maiden no less! Additionally, Parsifal encountered, fought and
overcame the infamous red knight. Parsifal did so because the
red
knight had embarrassed King Arthur and because Parsifal liked
the
look of his armour. Parsifal wanted a façade, to
bolster his ego and to
make a favorable impression. The "facing" of the red
knight is the step
that young men take, symbolically standing up to the father image,
the
authority they question and to exert their own emerging masculinity.
However, Parsifal wore his mothers "homespun"
garment underneath
his ill-gotten armour, which indicates that he had acquired only
a
knightly exterior! His own inner sense of maleness was still
shaky and
adolescent! His overcoming of the red knight won him favor and
so it
was that against all convention, King Arthur eventually knighted
Parsifal. However, his simplicity and grace remained intact largely
due
to his mother, unconventional upbringing and early life. Many
adventures subsequently took place for the young knight and eventually
as if by chance he found himself at the bridge leading
to the
mysterious Grail Castle.
Parsifal is wounded in the Grail Castle:
Youthful enthusiasm, charm and early masculine accomplishments
got
Parsifal to the drawbridge of the Grail Castle. He had earned
the right to
enter the castle and with young eyes filled wide with hope he
walked
in! Fueled with his desire for fulfilment as a knight and to
manifest his
deepest hopes, Parsifal enters the magical realm of the Grail
Castle.
Remember the Grail Castle is an actual mystical experience "hidden"
(like the castle itself) amidst the mists from all that cannot
see.
It is written in myth that men get two opportunities to enter
the Grail
Castle. The first time as youths, a "gratuitous" gift,
(given by God?) to
let young men experience the potential of their "numinous
self". The
second Grail Castle opportunity is not gratuitous and coincides
with
mans mid-life crisis; a time when men re-evaluate their
whole lives
and hopefully re-discover meaning and potency. To seek the actual
outer location of the castle is to miss the point, as it is always
near and
the two worlds (mystical-inner and outer world) do cross at specific
moments through meaningful coincidences and at specific locations.
Inside the castle, Parsifal was astonished at the majesty he
saw and he
did not understand what was going on. He tries to behave in a
fashion
according to his mother and knighthood teachings, after all this
is the
rational way to proceed. There was a hushed expectancy inside
the
castle, as everyone knew that an "innocent fool" was
prophesied to ask
the healing question to revive the king and The Grail. A knight
asked
Parsifal if he knew of the significance of what he had just seen?
Other
knights chanted as one to themselves for "fulfilment of
the prophecy";
that would restore the Holy Grail to there midst. All attention
and
compassion was focused upon Parsifal and he felt a great stirring
within
him to speak, but alas he said nothing! He heard the ladies
of the court
snigger "he is just a pure fool", laughing audibly
and gazing upon a
dumbfounded Parsifal. Surely he was not the chosen one they mused!
Parsifal again stood motionless and speechless. Another knight
rebuked
Parsifal with the words "you are just a common simpleton,
get gone
from here"!
Parsifal had repressed his instinct (his inner voice) to enquire
what this
entire mysterious world was about; he was just overwhelmed by
it all?
His mother had taught him not to ask too many questions and Parsifal
believed that obedience was a virtue. Remember Parsifal still
wore his
mothers homespun garment underneath his armour! Parsifal
now knew
that obedience to his mothers advice and collective opinion
had failed
him, so he vowed not to ignore his own intuition and instinctual
knowing again! But what youth at puberty can do that? Parsifal
was
ridiculed and deeply wounded by the Grail Castle experience.
A heavy
blow was taken to his masculinity, his early knighthood dreams
of glory
and his whole sense of worth as a man. The Grail Castle vanished
into
the mists and Parsifal found himself back in the world of time
and
space, on the edge of a forest licking his wounds.
Every man shares this wounding experience:
How many young men come to this same point as Parsifal in their
youth? Seemingly, every young man experiences a wounded-ness
to his
masculinity at the time of puberty; a sexual Fisher King wound,
one
could say? "It is painful to watch a young man realize that
his world is
not just joy and happiness, to watch the disintegration of his
childlike
beauty, faith, innocence and trust" (Johnson. R. 1989).
This step into
maleness, into daily "work related" life is so difficult
and often so
harsh. To leave, in a sense, the wonders of a maternal - primordial
inner
fairy-tale world or internal paradise for a "reality"
that is competitive
and demanding is a rigorous transition. Puberty initiations in
tribal
cultures, when boy becomes a man and viable member of the tribe
are
often via severe and painful rites of passage. Puberty for western
young
men is an unmarked "rite of passage"; therefore a painful
and mainly
unguided period of adjustment to early manhood!
The onset of puberty in boys brings them face to face with the
physical
reality of being a man. Newly found biological urges and cultural
fantasies impact enormously on his sense of self. As boys grow
up,
their erotic self (largely masturbation) is indirectly condemned
to the
toilets, posters, pornography and fantasies of his life. This
is due to
masculine sexuality not being successfully integrated by our
cultural
structures, family, schools, professional training, religious
instruction,
etc. This sends sexuality underground into the hidden, shadow,
shady
part of boys life. There is often such silence (no healthy
discussion
about his emerging sexuality) for young men at this time and
their
sexuality may often be self perceived as being dirty, sinful,
disgraceful
and hidden from his familys knowing. "There is a bizarre
assumption
that masculinity on one level excludes sexuality" (Wyly,
J, 1989), as his
sexuality is not "openly acknowledged, integrated and clear!"
As a
result, young men split-off from themselves and start to act
out their
sexuality in the shady shadows of their life. It is speculated
here that a
boys puberty experience and wounding stays with him through
life, to
eventually be consciously redeemed!
Other woundings around the time of puberty further impact on
a young
mans fragile sense of masculinity. Such other woundings
are: boys
first love or loneliness, first sexual encounter (often a disaster),
parental
or authority sexual abuse, separation/divorce of
parents, parental
drivenness for them to succeed, being rejected
. not one
of the boys, a
non-conformist attitude to collective "male standards",
being sensitive,
different, a non-sporting person in a sports mad country
etc!
Each
man has his own story!
Whatever the cause, a young mans sense of maleness can
be
devastatingly wounded at this time but hopefully not destroyed.
Alas,
some youths distressingly commit suicide at this point for their
life is
just too painful. Their wounding is experienced as a loss of
meaning, a
loss of hope for the future and coupled with devastated self-esteem.
Peter Gabriel in his famous song Dont give up
wrote of the young
mans potential suicidal tendency at this time:
"taught to fight, taught to win, I never thought I could
lose"
..
[then]
"No fight left or so it seems, I am a man whose dreams have
all
deserted
"
Typically, a young mans dreams have all deserted, he is
badly
wounded and left feeling worthless. Such a masculine wound is
directed
to his generative ability; his ability to be creative within
himself and
externally potent in the world. The young man feels psychologically
impotent, with no self-love and therefore little or no capacity
to
experience his own beauty. He is left with a haunting sense of
incompleteness and is too young to face it, as it is too overwhelming.
So the young man metaphorically "hides and runs away from
the
wounded "private part" of himself, much like Parsifal
did!
A mighty quest is conceived:
Parsifal, albeit badly wounded inside after his Grail Castle
experience,
cannot drop his desire for wholeness. He now has to search, learn
and
find his own way to eventually be worthy to re-enter the Grail
Castle
for the second time. He conjures up a noble ploy to reinstate
himself in
the eyes of those who have wounded and ridiculed him".
Parsifal
muses that returning the spear to the rightful owner will produce
healing to the King, redeem himself and restore life to the Kingdom.
A
mighty quest is conceived! Parsifal was embarrassed and ashamed
for
not doing the right thing in the castle. Yet the wound has
metaphorically ushered Parsifal into the beginning of consciousness,
a
search in the world, doing the necessary outer (and inner) work
as the
years go by. Parsifal knew that previous knights had tried to
win back
the spear but they were corrupted and fell. So his way required
courage
although his mighty quest may have initially been seen as more
"red
knight" adventures in the world! Red is symbolically associated
with
blood; the passionate "desire" for experience in the
world. When
wounded by his own ignorance, Parsifal bleeds red blood and he
causes
others to bleed while trying to prove his manhood. So it was
that
Parsifal leapt onto his horse and charged off to find success.
How young men emulate this:
Modern men charge off hoping to find something that will make
them
feel good again (heal their masculinity). Many young males seek
out
more red knight experiences (red sports car experiences?), a
persona, of
looking good and proving themselves in this world. Young men
generally ignore that wounded part of themselves and hope when
they
achieve this (getting the spear "shiny objects") or
that (bedding a fair
maiden) then they will feel better and they do but, alas, only
for a little
while. Boredom, restlessness, emptiness and wounded-ness return!
For
a quest for outer glory is undertaken largely to inflate an already
wounded masculine ego, to bolster self worth, potency and power
in
this world. How many young men each day over-ride their wounds
and
just ride off on their daily quest, hoping that this will fill
their void?
Our Western culture teaches young men that everything can be
reduced
to physical possessions, women, money and activities to entertain.
Man
may seek out woman after woman, however woman alone can never
cure man of his deep wound! Generally, men do have the belief
of
finding the "perfect woman." In this belief he is unconsciously
looking
for something to give his life the meaning and the beauty he
senses is
achievable. A familiar problem with western man is that he often
falls
for the trap that "feminine good looks", equates to
him feeling good, a
trophy as such. This is a cultural cosmetic lie for both males
and
females who strive to "capture" the heart of the "good
looking one",
with little or no regard to relatedness, tenderness and beauty
within the
person. Man ultimately finds out that its not possible
for his "perfect"
woman to redeem his soul, as she is earthly, fallible woman ("cellulite
and all").
We are surrounded by sexual images in our western society and
most of
the time infidelity and casual sex is encouraged. "Sowing
ones wild
oats" is a culturally endorsed practice for young men and
the collective
understanding is thus. That if a young man has many sexual encounters
he will feel good about himself and will feel like a man. Then
it is
assumed that young men will eventually settle down
and be good
husbands and fathers. One may ask, what happened to the maidens
(all
daughters) along the way? This is adolescent masculinity endorsed
informally by our culture. Additionally, "the attainment
of manhood is
often equated with active use of mans phallus" (Monick,
E, 1987).
Young men are perhaps too young to do the necessary "inner
work" and
to oppose collective adolescent masculine ideals, but what is
older
mens excuse? I attribute adolescent masculinity
to three aspects,
namely; the "Don Juan legacy", an un-integrated erotic
life and an
inability to relate authentically!
"Don Juan" and mans erotic self:
Don Juan as a man, was beset by erotic thoughts and pursued the
lofty
sexual instinct of the moment in the "trickery" of
his life. Prolonged
intimacy made him fidget and he needed constant sexual stimuli
to
avoid becoming bored. There exists the same "collective"
perception in
modern man, that if he beds many women, then he is having a good
life, a "good innings." Mans flagging/wounded
masculinity is
generally inflated by such conquests and he will
often retell of his
sexual prowess to other men in order to win their admiration
and
approval.
Western definitions of masculinity congratulate a man for his
"Don
Juan" trickery, his coolness, rational process, dispassionate
reasoning
and outsmarting others. Robert Johnson (1989) said, "it
is eloquent that
in our modern language we describe men we admire as cool,
[meaning not warm and relational]." Mans inability
to relate
authentically is a culturally transmitted "wrong path,"
which keeps boys
and men alienated from expressing their feelings. We hear of
the need
for "self-love", but men in particular often do not
like what they have
become and by middle age often feel totally empty.
Modern mans emptiness is seduced by "Don
Juans" adolescent
masculinity as Don Juan "beds the women." So man, being
somewhat
envious, emulates Don Juans adolescent masculinity well
past
adolescence with devastating consequences. Mans tendency
to seek
out or repeatedly fantasize about sexual experience outside of
his
"primary" relationship, carries a terrible cost to
man himself. The costs
are experienced in restlessness, moods, depression, and relationship
problems or breakdown, plus a general adding to his already wounded
self. Why, because the inner trickery, the shady (split-off)
adolescent
side of "Don Juan" man has overcome the truer nobler
aspects of his
masculinity.
Man may also come to disdain (loath) his sexuality and if so,
this eats
away at his self-worth, as in the knowing of his own soul, he
feels
humiliated "as a sexual man." His sexual, shadow-shady
thoughts and
actions in society have left him humiliated. Conversely, the
more
eroticism is repressed or ignored the more it gestates, until
it bursts
forth into inappropriate and harmful sexual shadow activity.
For an
example of this we need only reflect on how Priests have sexually
abused children in their care! Clearly, eroticism must be integrated
and
expressed appropriately!
Phallic energy and sexual thoughts, at their essence, are mans
innate
desire to connect with his life force, to feel alive, potent
and creative.
Therefore, mans fantasies are empowering thoughts that
an inwardly
bored, empty or disempowered man has to try and re-connect himself
to
feeling powerful and potent again. Most sexual attacks are
psychologically understood as issues of power! Sexual thoughts
towards a perfect stranger are to be understood as the healthy
life
instinct within man (the creative masculine) that is wanting
expression
in his life. However, he must ultimately understand that those
same
sexual thoughts and desires are totally inappropriate if pursued
in
isolation from true relating which would only lead to harmful
actions
and emptiness. Sexual actions without authentic relating split
man off,
foremost from the true masculine; the alive-ness, the "feel
good" life
force that he seeks. However, that healthy instinct within man
is stirring
up mans erotic sexual nature to ultimately reconnect him
with his
feelings, to reunite the split-off sides of himself and be co-creative.
Unbeknown to most men, this is what drives his "desires
and fantasies"
for sexual conquest! Mans "desires" emerge to
re-connect him with his
own feelings and to be creative and relational. Simplistically,
man is
being asked on an interior level to give his feelings expression!
The
healthy, instinctual life force pushes mans erotic nature
into creative
expression and ultimately towards wholeness of being in his life.
This
occurs only when erotic, sexual man co-exists with loving relating
man;
the two must not be split!
Erotic love is quite rightly part of the beauty and relatedness
that men
seek. Erotic love can be successfully integrated into true masculinity
with a revitalized desire to feel and relate authentically. However,
modern man is so badly wounded "too ill to live but not
ill enough to
die" (the "Fisher King" modern malaise) and the
path towards true
masculinity is rarely portrayed for him to see. In the myth of
Parsifal,
the Holy Spear (the masculine weapon or phallus) had gone off
(was
missing) and hence was split off from the Holy Chalice (feeling
and
beauty). For each man the journey is to learn, heal and change
his life
to live this true masculinity. Parsifal shows men the way to
heal their
wound and to metaphorically re-unite the spear and chalice
within
themselves.
Parsifal finally locates the spear and encounters the alluring
Kundry:
Parsifal demonstrated true masculinity in-the-field
(so to speak) in
his meeting with Kundry. He showed men how to relate authentically
in
their daily lives and especially how to relate to women.
Parsifals life to date was seen as a battleground of both
outer and inner
opponents to make or break his wholeness. He eventually came
to the
whereabouts of the Holy Spear, yet before he could re-capture
it, he
encounters the now most beautiful and alluring sorceress in Kundry.
Kundry as aforesaid has been "bewitched" and trapped
into service by
the "dark-side" and as Parsifal gets close to the spear
he meets the most
testing aspect to his masculinity.
Parsifals encounter with Kundry is so noteworthy, as he
shows us how
to relate to women; in the face of luscious temptation. It is
so
instructive to men about the erotic temptations they face and
how to
hold true masculinity intact. Kundry had been sent to delude
Parsifal
into wrongful actions, which would automatically have set the
Holy
Spear out of reach! Clearly Parsifal was instinctual man and
Kundry
was at her most alluring, so it seems certain that he would have
found
her gorgeous and have entertained sexual thoughts about her.
I am indebted to Joseph Kerricks Internet site and I paraphrase
his
words, which eloquently illustrate the temptations that Parsifal
encountered:
"Kundry was dressed in seductive finery of a regal courtesan
so that
any man who looked at her would see his hearts desire."
He [Parsifal]
encountered Kundry, lying on a divan in a lushly appointed chamber;
he felt himself go flush with the flames of awakened passion.
She
twined her arm about his neck like a serpent, and drew him into
a kiss.
He pulled away disturbed, clutching his heart. "What!"
said Kundry,
shaken out of her role by this inexplicable outburst. "The
cost of such
bliss," said Parsifal, "would be endless cycles of
doubly-damned
torment for both of us." The sin is not in the act,"
he said, "but in the
actors. If the heart and the motive are pure, the love
is blessed. If not,
there will yet be the Devil to pay. At this she ripped off her
flimsy
raiment and spread her arms and legs wide, offering herself desperately
for a thrust and a penetration that did not come. Parsifal only
stared at
her in pity, his fools look gone, though not his compassion.
(Kerrick, J., "Parsifal and the Holy Grail" 1999).
Parsifal knew in his heart that to "partake" of Kundry
was in fact a dual
act of dishonoring himself and Kundry. He chose to embrace his
own
erotic thoughts; to acknowledge their presence but to put them
away.
He knew instinctively that to act upon them it was not the right
thing to
do, as there was no beauty, relating, and feeling or love present.
He
embraced Kundry and refused her offerings, looked at her with
compassion and in so doing made himself and Kundry whole at the
same time.
With Parsifals compassionate rejection of Kundry, Parsifal
assumed
more strength and merit to his being. With this right action
he had both
asked and answered the famous question "what or whom does
it serve"
to act in this way. "Every thought and behavior [of man]
in this light is
subject to this same inner questioning and knowing" (Whiteout
E,
1987). Not only did Parsifal pass this test, but also through
his
compassion towards Kundry, her "soul and queenly self"
were restored
and she emerged from the entrapments that had bewitched her.
She was
redeemed by Parsifals inner strength of true masculinity.
Kundry in fact was so thankful for being redeemed by Parsifal
that she
showed him where the Holy Spear lay! Symbolically, the finding
of the
Holy Spear was Parsifal finding his true masculinity, brought
about by
the feminine aspect of himself (and Kundry). The feeling,
compassionate side of Parsifal enabled him to become whole and
"one,"
not split-off from his true masculine "phallic self.
Parsifal underwent
an enormous trial with the temptations of Kundry (as each man
may
encounter) and he chose the path of honoring his true feelings
and
masculine strength. Overcoming Kundry with such nobleness of
being,
Parsifal had set himself free and he had earned the right to
re-enter the
Grail Castle for the second time.
The second Grail Castle experience:
The second Grail Castle opportunity, as aforesaid, coincides
with mans
mid-life crisis, a time when man reflects and re-evaluates his
whole life,
to hopefully re-discover meaning and potency in his remaining
years. It
is written in myth that every night when we are asleep the awesome
"Grail experience" goes on.
Parsifal had earned the right over 20 to 30 years of knighthood
to
re-gain entry to the Grail Castle for the second time and to
re-ask the
question. Symbolically, he had put off the homespun garment his
mother had made him, which initially he had under his armour!
Parsifal
had "untangled himself from the collective, mother, adolescent
complex
and emerged as a man capable of potentiating his own individual
destiny" (Wyly, J, 1989). From simple innocence he had matured
to
profound wisdom, redeemed by his inner strength and high fidelity.
Parsifal said at this point "for I am innocent no longer,"
rather he had
acquired conscious innocence. Conscious innocence was Parsifals
guileless, authentic open "warm" self that had endured,
won the day and
completed the heroes journey.
Inside the Grail Castle, the same majesty and mystery was enacted
but
this time Parsifal was undeterred from what he must do. Parsifals
first
act was to touch the wound of the Fisher King, (his wounded testicles)
with the spear. This act by Parsifal made it plain to the king
that it was
the kings inappropriate sexual behavior and his lack of
integrity had
caused the wound. The Fisher King had severed the kingdoms
connection with the Holy Grail, by allowing "shadow/shady
activity" to
take place within his soul and the Grail Castle (his domain).
Parsifal then asks the famous question "Whom does the grail
serve"?
Immediately the gathering was made aware of the answer "The
Grail
serves the Grail King. Parsifal in giving "voice"
to the mystery of what
is important to uphold in the kingdom knew that, "the Grail
is located
within himself. By asking the question "whom does
it serve" meant
that man must choose to give service to his conscience and honor
that
kingly part of himself.
With the Holy Spear returned, the Fisher King was instantly healed
and
immediately the Holy Grail enactment commenced restoring light
into
the kingdom. The land instantly transformed back into fertility
and the
waters flowed again. Water, being a psychic element, re-emerged
when
the feminine aspects wholesomely combined with the restored
masculine aspects enabling the Holy Grail to flow again in the
kingdom. Some versions of the myth have it that the Fisher King
died
three days later and Parsifal became the new king - guardian
of the
Grail and served the Grail well throughout the kingdom.
Parsifal knew the reason for his own suffering, as well as the
Fisher
Kings (and modern mans), for he had transcended the
suffering that
results from being split-off from ones own integrity. Achieving
true
"kingly" masculinity in this sense is an accomplishment,
not a birthright
and is birthed through suffering, self-reflection and clarity
in all actions.
The Fisher King was the brother of Parsifals father, and
Parsifal could
not simply inherit the "kingdom", he had to earn it
and be worthy of it.
Likewise, men have to accomplish true masculinity!
Parsifals secret to success:
Parsifals "secret to success" as such, was his
lack of trickery (refusal of
artificiality), his inner code of honor and overcoming infidelity
in all
his actions. He knew that years before, as a "green innocent
fool," he
had left the Grail Castle wounded because he, like the Fisher
King, had
not had sufficient masculine inner strength to hold to his inner
nobility
(the Grail) and to do and say what was right.
Parsifal, as we men, set out on the heros journey wanting
The Grail to
serve him (his ego) but in the end he knew that we all serve
the Holy
Grail. Parsifal in serving The Grail simply learned to listen
and honor
his own conscience and uphold it with true masculinity. Conscience
to
almost every culture means, "ones unique duty, personal
moral
imperative, sense of right and wrong, inner voice, still small
voice of
God" (Bloomsbury Thesaurus). That inner voice, of conscience,
that
speaks to everyone and is there for each one of us to take heed
of his
own inner voice! Parsifal, in becoming truly masculine, found
his own
voice and was then whole enough to re-enter the Grail Castle
and ask
the famous question. When a man takes the ultimate step of courage
to
listen and honor his own inner voice, knowing and path, then
he has
turned the corner and is safe.
Parsifal had transcended and integrated duality within himself
and had
attained great humility by knowing the source (within) of his
masculine
strength and to whom he does serve. Parsifal had integrated duality
in
the following sense: His "red heart [of passion] had been
opened to his
feelings and merged with his mind." "He had integrated
the black
[erotic] with the white [purity] aspects of himself to achieve
high
fidelity of being" (Burt, K, 1988). For without integration
of duality
there remains "split-off-ness" within the man. "Only
as an individual,
undivided, can man continue on his journey, meet the feminine
[within
and without] as an equal opposite and fulfil his creative destiny"
(Wyly,
J, 1989).
Modern mans first task is to change and heal his adolescent
masculinity. He may finally commit (with Parsifal strength) to
fidelity
of heart (to himself), sexual fidelity (to his partner) and fidelity
of
actions (in his business affairs). High fidelity of sound is
a good
example as the device (a stereo) faithfully reproduces sound
(The
Word) that flows through it, without distortion and of high quality.
We
are encouraged as men to get in touch with our feminine side
but for
men our masculinity is the real issue. For modern man the call
is to
commit to a true masculinity, in its broadest meaning. "Unless
man in
his individuality can differentiate himself from "collective"
patriarchal
standards, both will go down together" (Wyly, J, 1989).
Jesus Christ, I believe, was a man like Parsifal, full-blooded
and
instinctual, an erotic, loving man, who became a powerful man
in battle
within this world. Both men in this sense stood the tests of
life that all
men face and yet emerged into wholeness of being; into true
masculinity, in such a way that we as modern men can emulate.
When
man can begin to see true masculinity and emulate
it, then he will
begin to know himself as a "good man," develop warmth
of character
and be less cool. He will start to obey inner authority
more and have
inner honor, to uphold conscience and authentic clearness in
all his
words and dealings. If man can do this then self-love starts
to grow and
he will begin to feel and achieve more wholesomely in the world.
Significant others will respond immediately to this inner wholeness
and
transforming dignity. Love and success is then possible, not
just to
receive love but more importantly to love through all actions!
- Each day is a quest:
Truly we are made whole or empty daily as each action modifies
our
own character and sense of being in this world. So as man goes
about
his ordinary life, he either honors or over-rides his own inner
knowing.
This simple yet profound difference in how man goes about his
day
makes a huge impact on his own sense of uprightness and health
in his
being. A Zen Buddhist master poignantly taught his pupil to keep
his
inner mirror forever free of dust! If man does something wrong,
then he
must not take shelter in trickery and trivial excuses, but rather
make a
noble hearted effort to resolve his fault within himself and
make clear
reparation with others about it in the exterior world. For whatever
men
do or feel toward another person each day, has a deep psychological
impact on themselves and on the other.
The giving up of the inflated persona in which men have invested
significant years, implies a terrifying confrontation with people
around
them and rejection of people whom they thought were important
to
them (Wyly, J. 1989). Additionally, "young and old males
suffer when
their phallic image is threatened" (Monick, E, 1987). However,
it is the
transformation of adolescent masculinity to true masculinity
that needs
to take place. Man may come to know and be his "ordinary"
self
(without inflations) and experience all that inner warmth and
beauty
that has not left him. Men may experience this transition as
scary, but it
is an essential step to emerge into true masculinity. To live
as "free"
men, means not selling or enslaving ones own soul and integrity
to
"cultural stereotypes and standards.
If man remains in the old mentality of seeking the solution only
in the
exterior world or blaming something outside of himself then he
cannot
be healed and dooms himself to loneliness and emptiness within!
"Often, a cultural man [artificial, collective, adolescent
male] kills his
natural [noble] man and nature replies by making him impotent"
(Johnson. R. 1989).
True masculinity requires man to combine the rational with the
irrational within himself. More often than not, the Grail Knight
is
unable to find the Grail Castle on his own accord, which means
that
something is always interceding to keep him pointed in the right
direction (that inner voice of conscience) and this is the irrational
aspect
for man to follow. This is the "innocent fool" Parsifal
part of himself
that assists his unique transformation. To do this, man has to
risk being
vulnerable, "not knowing" and to emerge "ordinary"
from behind the
inflations and trickery that prop him up in society. Remember
that each
day every knight of the inner order in the Grail Castle would
renew his
oath to uphold the task of giving himself in service to the Holy
Grail.
The powerful play of life goes on each day and man is called
upon to
contribute one verse. Heroes live forever, as does Parsifal in
the hearts
of modern man!
Richard A. Sanderson M.Ed., B.A (Psych). is a lecturer, teacher,
freelance writer and caretaker of nature. He lives in Perth,
Western
Australia.
Comments please (via e-mail) to Richard Sanderson:
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